"The opposite of happiness"
Sitting in darkness, the dreadful peace of sorrow
And only to hear the depressing melodies that follow
Endlessly playing, causing much distress
Excessively disheartening, misery of loneliness
Sitting in darkness, feeling nothing only deception
Simply realizing that no person carries such perfection
For every character displays misfortunes & mistakes
And the ability to intentionally cause harsh heartbreaks
Sitting in darkness, I sit confused, merely trying to express
Thoughts encircling my mind, never ending, and somehow meaningless
I seek happiness, but my heart is too full of dismay
To no one I speak of this, for only I, myself, am manage to convey
Sitting in darkness, still, helpless, all emotionally
But my time alone is needed, for aloneness grants me tranquility
I do struggle between my heart and mind, which is two of such contradiction
But someday, somehow, answers I’ll find, regarding my life, and its depiction.
"NEXT to nothing"
I embrace life, but only finding my soul to be empty
I praise the Lord, he who provides faith, no less, but plenty
I take a glimpse of my surroundings, the earth and skies, upon it I gaze
Only to realize what it has become, leaving me confused and dazed
I close my eyes, feeling the harsh wind on my bare skin
I cry for salvation, stumbling beyond life & death, and for all my sins
I pray for strength, to aid and nurture my beloved wounds
But they say only time will tell, and only time can heal…*Sigh* hopefully that’s soon.
"Invitation to happiness" (incomplete)
All these months, I’ve searched high and low
Looking for you, the perfect fellow...
Do not say hate
Do not be cruel
Do not swear so much
jus to new a few
Do not invite evil
Do not invite death
Do not allow killing
Do not put someone to rest
Do not lie at all
Do not steal and cheat
Do not act on violence
Do not feel incomplete
However, do love
And do be kind
be loved, feel loved
despite it being blind
Do say I love you
be sacred thru soul
every now and so often
fill in that lonely hole
smile and be free
care less of all things
invite happiness at all cost
and good change it'll bring.
p.s.
weird...yes...i know.
