sometimes it happens. its just one of those days of stumbling through some random thoughts. they just come storming down on you, tackling those happy nerves. its almost as if your brain were a seasonal destination for them, telling you "checking in...for now." and there that goes, my happy nerves are no longer wanting to stay, perhaps too much clutter. so there i am, one second i'm content and the next second, i'm a mess. auugh, it's just that darn "why" word that can't seem to leave me alone even after shooing it away. If only i can get rid of that isolated in-between-the-confusion-of-whether-it's-a-complete-sentence-or-fragment-kind-of-word. "WHY?" I don't know why. Really. I will never know why. i can't say what it is because I can't answer what it asks. sometimes it happens."...the invisible world is full of plexiglass walls, sugar-coated people with monstrous flaws.
to be middle of the desert, when all hopes fall, i once rekindle my memory of it all."
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I feel you.
It seems as if there is fatigue and stress in all this that you are going through. Boni said it right, she feels you, I do too. "We struggle only to make it better, but it takes a strong will to effect the change that is desired to make it better"...
thanks guys! i didn't want to write a blog of "rehearsed" thoughts. its a feeling that come and go, and at that moment, it came. i know you all are going through rough times as well...i wish you love and happiness.
p.s.
it's all this middle child thing! :P gets me pretty down on most days. i have mcsyndrome, i'm sure.
p.s.s
but despite of it all, i have mad love for everyone.
i know your surrounded by friends from were you at and its different. maybe if you are with family you wouldn't feel invisible because we know how you roll.
you know?!?--you'd think that bcoz we're hella busy that we wouldn't have time to dwell on these emotions noh?..pray my sister...things will get better...if you feel that you're on the down low...think of it this way --- there's nowhere else to go -- but UP !!..
take care...miss n luv u all
biges sista!
hmm...mysterious blogger is once again here. who is this mysterious lady and why does she hide? very, very interesting....lol...
you need to stop being invisible and start writing again
mysterious blogger, good one. Our big does not hide at all, but surfaces when she sees siblings in need for emotional support, we are blessed.
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